All in World Travels
I was in my early twenties when a man made me quit my job and life in London to live in Trinidad with him (we knew each other and had dated for a while when we both lived in Florida, USA). At the time South Africans needed visas for Trinidad (we no longer do) and he organized all that, so I thought this is real and I trusted him.
I recently told a friend that in addition to spending most of the pandemic catching sunsets and sitting on my balcony eating or sipping peppermint tea, I now spend a lot of my evenings watching birds and observing their behavior and letting my mind wander.
There’s a money myth that a lot of people, in particular South Africans, buy into and believe.
That myth is that moving to another country will change you finances and lead to financial freedom.
I bought into this myth as well and it shaped my life.
I started traveling and living abroad right after graduation in 2005 because I believed that's what would lead to financial freedom.
When I started tantra yoga, I'd only done vinyasa yoga and ashtanga yoga and was focused on being in the poses and looking awesome as I do them.
I'd force myself into poses and now I have to challenge myself to relax in a pose and feel into my body, which changed my life.
But not before I almost lost my mind crying everyday when I was getting my yoga teaching certificate in Goa, India and then had all sorts of ancestral and deep childhood memories surface.
Day 5 was my favourite day of the retreat - it was the day of hiking, sweat lodges and full moon fire ceremonies...it was magic.
It was also the day I got to teach my work and some healing things I learned from my mother.
We started the day with tantra yoga, meditation and breakfast as usual.
Our inner child feels loyal to our mothers's struggles and honours our mothers through our vows of invisibility and self sabotage.
All this shows up as guilt and worthiness issues in our finances and our ability to celebrate ourselves.
How can we allow ourselves to be happy and thriving when our mothers have sacrificed so much for us?
