All tagged money and family
For years, my natural instinct when it came to money, especially having money in the bank or making money, was to run as far and as fast as possible.
And I did this for years and I prayed that somehow if I worked hard enough and did enough affirmations, my money situation would change and my relationship with money would change.
Time does NOT heal wounds and it certainly doesn't heal trauma.
In fact with time trauma can be passed down from generation to generation and start to shape the family and the way people relate to each other in families.
A while back I was chatting with a friend and we were talking about how much fun adulting is.
I honestly didn't enjoy my childhood and teens because I was constantly dealing with abuse, but adulting has been and continues to be awesome so far:
Having money (or more money than we’re used to) can feel unsettling and unsafe in our nervous systems; in an effort to protect us, the parts of us that feel scared/unsafe, guilty/ashamed etc. with having more money (or being seen/being powerful/being carefree etc.) block money or get rid of money to "keep us alive."
Healing is a process and we expand as we heal and peel the layers.
The expansion and the joy all happens side by side with the healing.
There is this pressure to just be healed, like healing is a destination you arrive at and the ish falls into place.
Growing up I was taught to never share anything that was in my zone of genius with people outside the family because they would bewitch me, try to take my gifts and kill me.
