Instead I kept recreating debt and using all my earnings to donate to charities or buy things I didn't need. And freaking out that my family would find out that I was making money and would ask me for money, when I really didn't have money.
All in Changing Our Feelings About Money
Money has Nothing to do with Discipline even though on the Surface it Appears that Way
This obsession with having fiscal discipline or being positive, used to cause me so much pain and shame, because it used to make me feel weak willed and like there was something wrong with me!
5 Steps to Help You Change Your Attitude Towards Money
When I was US$60,000 in debt, I gave myself 5 years to pay off my debt and gave myself permission to just focus on changing my spending habits and fall in love with my bank account.
I paid off the debt in 4 years, launched my company and started traveling again!
It all started with changing my attitude towards money.
How Embracing Our Prostitute Archetype Can Help Us Heal Our Relationship With Money
"Caroline Myss, bestselling author of Anatomy of the Spirit, asserts that each of us has a financial prostitute; we’re all capable of selling our minds, bodies and/or talents for financial gain.
Most people balk at this idea, but if you’re in a job you hate and you’re only in it for the pay cheque, then you’re selling your mind or talent for money.
If you’re in a loveless marriage or a relationship for financial security, then you have a price.
If you’re an artist doing creative work you hate, you’re selling out your talent, and that pay cheque is your price.
What keeps this financial prostitute alive? Our need to survive or just plain survival instinct."
Dealing With Month End Anxiety Or Overwhelm
When I was heavily in debt, month end was always the hardest time of the month for me.
That's when my desperation and shame about money would reach an all time high and I’d start panicking because I knew I didn't have enough money to cover my bills and something was going to bounce.
At the same time, I was petrified of people finding out the truth about my finances.
My friends, who knew what was happening, told me to do affirmations and visualization and that everything would shift when I did this.
I even started budgeting because I wanted to see a shift in my life.
Yet something interesting happened in my world – the more I affirmed, the worse I felt and the more critical and negative I became towards myself.
I was convinced there was something seriously wrong with me. I believed I was beyond help and that I was cursed when it came to money.
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