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How Trauma Keeps Us From Receiving And Makes Us Perpetual Givers

I used to spend hours chanting (I was Nichiren Buddhist) just to pay rent.

The bigger my goal, the longer I used to chant. I'd host 10 hour chanting marathons because I believed a bigger goal took more time to achieve and I needed to chant for longer periods of time for the Universe/ Source/ God to hear my prayer and give to me.

I grew up seing my mom and aunts behave in the same way - they'd pray longer and harder when there was a big goal to achieve.