Healing is as Much a Collective Experience as it is an Individual One
On this journey of entrepreneurship and crafting a life we really want to live we need a tribe. I keep saying this.
I am blessed because I have a massive support network from family and friends. I am grateful everyday.
When I have a rough day there are people I can call to hold space for me; even my coaches check in on me and rearrange their schedules so I can have a session.
Coaching has been a game changer for me. I can spend weeks in freeze or fight or flight mode working through my ish on my own when I am triggered or I can have a coaching session and resolve my triggers in an hour and move on and get things done.
Sometimes we need someone to hold space because our triggers are not our own
I was so triggered, I could do anything, so I asked my coach for an emergency coaching session and I ended up having 100+ freaking ancestors show up to the session because what I was dealing with was at least 100 women ancestors' stuff.
I felt it in my womb as red flaming silk and in my tummy as contained molten lava with bottomless black air in my intestines (honestly trust me on this)
And even though my coach is not an ancestral healer and she said she was also learning yesterday, she held the space and my ancestors felt safe.
I had no clue my ancestors would come through and just take over the session. I was there to deal with my own drama. I seriously thought it was caused by a simple issue..open and shut case of fear of expansion and I needed a quick mindset shift.
Anyway, 60 mins into the session, the ancestors showed up as a freaking army and I relayed all that was happening to my coach and she had to figure out how to heal us all.
And I cried for like an hour as we untangled how colonization and apartheid taught them to play small and be invisible as a survival mechanism.
In an effort to stay safe from White men they learned to play safe and taught each daughter to do the same.
To hide their brilliance and doubt their own wisdom so White people and even their husbands can feel superior and let them be. And hide their African spirituality, practice in secret.
They came shaking and scared for me because I am asking all of them to stand with me for something beyond me and beyond just money.
So we were all healing and freaked out but by the end of the session they stood straighter and we had to sit in silence as each ancestor came forth to bestow a gift on me to help me on my mission.
They all agreed to tell/teach the main ancestor I have been working with since 2014, to teach me how I can tap into each gift.
This is also the ancestor who granted (help me unlock) me the gift of energy healing (sort of reiki) and guides most of my coaching sessions and also guides the #MoneyMagic course meditations.
This is also why some of those meditations feel like a freaking time warp and 30 mins can feel like 30 hours.
I have no formal training in these things, she trains me and when I need more training she will tell me to wait until she gets more info on where I should go to get it.
She is a praying ancestor but in a different way. My relationship with her is a whole other story because she does a lot in my world.
She wakes me up when I am running late for meetings and ish. It's weird. My alarm may not ring but she will come in my dreams and ask me to wake up.
Or wake me up and tell me to pack and leave a country for another country by a set date.
Or tell me to leave a relationship even when I think he is the one and I'm happy.
This is just a reminder that our history has left us with invisible scars and they affect our finances in various ways and we don’t have to do this healing journey alone.
